16 January 2011

1st Step

After almost 2 months, I am back again to my very own room in my Eldest Brother’s apartment in Puchong. I still remember very clearly how I took things for granted the last time I was staying here. My 2010 was really rediculously rediculous now that I think back. No matter how i regretted the life of my 21st year of being a human, I do hope I will remember how lifeless was I and make it a very painful reminder in my life.
            I have not done or read up anything regarding to what I am studying for the past 2 months, only to realize that I do have interest in it. Despite being interested, I am still having that fear in me. The fear that made me ran away from reality and responsibilities, the fear that made me doubt myself so so much is still in me. I don’t know if I am going to get rid of this fear anytime soon, but I do realized that I must face it even if it cost everything. In fact, I doesn’t really have anything to lose anymore, I’ve lost it all last year!
            What I’ve learn while I was in Taiwan earlier this year? I would say one of the things I’ve learnt was do not be afraid to take up responsibilities. Be original and just be confident of my own capabilities. Although it takes time to even believe in myself, but I am doing it. Reason for failing so many times? I guess that’s because I always taking things up on my own and when I feel helpless, I tried to seek my own answers which obviously is stupid to seek help from a helpless person.
            I have always been a solo person. Trying to be tough infront of everyone. I just hope I am making progress in changing myself. When I realized I wasn’t the tough person I was anymore who knows almost everything, I felt so light. In the end, being ordinary and simple is better =)

13 January 2011




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03 January 2011


Haven't been able to write for a few days.. Has been really busy coordinating and making sure the first few days of the volunteer camp run smooth..

There were a little mess here and there but everything is still fine. I just hope this will be another memorable one like last one! Although my position for this one is different, I am grateful to be given the chance to service not only patients in the hospital bit as well as 50 people who join this camp from 7 different countries!

The abode is a really peaceful place although the living pace here is very fast. Everything need to be done effectively and efficiently as well as able to have a positive attitude toward everything. Troubles seems to be so far away somehow.

There might be a lot of things we must obey and follow that people might not understand but this is where we learn to respect. By respecting people, we gain people's respect at the same time.

Sometimes, things are just so peaceful and easy when life is simple. Let just hope I can continue living with the same attitude when this camp end.

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